Penang, Malaysia – April 2010
She laughs so loud when i told her I’m thinking to apply for a job in Emirates, told me don’t dream so high, and be realistic. (that moment when air asia cancelled the route to Abu Dhabi and the fact that i feel career link in Emirates’s website is blinking, lol )
She left me stoned. In my mind running the question, aren’t dreams made to be high so that we can aim higher? and again, WHY. is there anything funny? aren’t you my best friend who just asked me what am i gonna do during my jobless period, who i think suppose to just listen to me and support me mentally in any way you can?
she still cant stop laughing when she finally told me “if my husband who can speak four languages and so much national dialect can’t even get into emirates,why can you ? ” I just sealed my lips. in my heart i whisper, she is wrong God, let me prove it.
after that incident, my days are like other job-seeker, sending email, going to job fair, asking person to another person if they have any connection reading newspaper , browsing and the list go on.
Jakarta, Indonesia, August 2010
it’s more than half of the year that I’m unemployed. been kicked out from my friend’s house ,been treated like you have no value, been humiliated by your (used to be colleagues). just mention it, i’ve been there.
I start to feel like I am a big loser when i applied everywhere, and no reply even one.
I start to disappear from anyone. set status to hiatus.
I know God is listening, I asked HIM many times.
I know God is aware of my pain, I’m trying my best to keep my faith.
I cried to mom, dad , I cried to HIM, I cried for the feeling of failure. for the feeling my life is having no sense. I cried for HIM letting me down so long. I cried until I cant even cry.
my mom told me to not let anyone convince me that i don’t deserve what i want . she said hold on to God, life is a wheel . that’s one of the sweetest song to my soul. I think she saved me by saying that.
on October 20 2010 , exactly, on my birthday, I received an email. when I even not hope for it, when let’s say i forgot about it. I’m glad God hear my prayer and since then i keep my card close to my chest.
I’ll never forget the day i flew for the first time with emirates, I’ll never forget the moment i was so excited to see stars above the ceiling of the plane, I’ll never forget the moment i did my first eye scan. I’ll never forget the moment i first arrive in Dubai airport which will be my workplace,i’ll never forget the shocked i am knowing the toilet can be flush by putting your palm on the sensor. Never forget the day i experienced my first sand storm (i think one of the greatest achievement for people living in Dubai is to walk outside during the storm) and the day i had my first summer (the first time i feel like i’m a grilled meat) the first time i saw Burj Khalifa, go top of it just to scream my name , the day i am able to touch the camel , ride the camel and eat the camel. ^.^
there is sentences that i always keep in my dream board and scrapbook
I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it — I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes.
I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”
Denis2005 Virginia Satir quotes (American Psychologist and Educator, 1916-1988)
In life, when God leads you to the cliff, only one of two things will happen. God will either teach you how to fly or catches you when you fall. And things happen for a reason, and it’s definitely for the better…’
I’m a salary-woman in Dubai and a dreamer. I like backpacking and daydreaming. I wanted to learn and get trained.
I’m enjoying myself and eager to pursue a career in this country wholeheartedly.
I would like to have an opportunity as my learning platform to be a better travel-writer .
the idea that my writings and my pictures will be somewhere on the media is just makes my day. ^.^
im pretty sure that this post is there on my draft quite long ! hahhahaa..